Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I'm slowly giving up.
okay... i'm sitting here in my workout clothes and while i SHOULD be working out.. i'm not. Now, WHY you ask? I'm frustrated that's why. I WANT TO PUNCH SOMETHING. I take my measurements every monday to see how my progress is going on losing the baby weight i put on.... i figured if i worked out hardcore 5 days a week and drank shakes for breakfast and lunch while having a healthy dinner that i'd be losing weight like crazy right? Well.. i have been doing this routine for SIX FULL WEEKS people... SIX. and i've lost only THREE FRICKIN POUNDS. oh... and like 2 inches. WOW... lame. and this last week i've lost NOTHING... NOTHING!?!?!??!?!?!? how the HELL did that happen? i'm working out even with a bruised foot!!!! i'm avoiding a sleeping baby!!! what the crap is wrong with my body!?!?! why is it holding on to this weight?!?!! i feel fat and ugly and i hate it. I will never make fun of fat people again. EVER. This is the most depressed and defeated i've ever felt. why do i even try? so that's it. i'm giving up. i'm gonna just be fat. i wanna cry as i type that but i don't know what else to do... SIX WEEKS? i'm not losing ANYTHING substantial. And i'm not just doing some lame workout... i'm doing P90X. and for those of you who don't know what that is... look it up... it's super extreme working out. so yeah... i'm drinking a soda and eating fruit by the foot instead of working out because i'm feeling so defeated....i don't know what to do. that's all.
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Okay, so first of all, I'm going to wash your mouth out with soap!!!!! You said....H-E-1-1...bad bad girl!!!!!
Okay, but seriously...girl, you JUST HAD A BABY!!!!! Your body WILL get back to what it was....but it just takes patients. With my first pregnancy, I gained 48 lbs! Yah, I was freaking FAT! And I kept it on for ALONG time!!!! I couldn't get rid of it at all either...but THEN...it ALL came off...plus some! It just takes awhile is all. It does get easier! I promise:) So, keep doing what your doing....OR the other option is to completely stress over something, like majorally bad...you always lose weight when you stress out...but then again, you also get zits from stress too?!?!
oh lindsey...I feel so bad for you...it took me 6 months to finally get back to where I was before I was preg. I am surprised too that you haven't lost weight I hate working out period so I'm proud you are doing so good at working out. I would of lost hope too but you can't remember losing baby weight is harder then losing reg. weight so if it takes you 6 months it will happen. You are beautiful the way you are!
:( reading this makes me so sad for you!!
Don't feel defeated...don't give up! Plus you gained it for a great reason! It will take time to come off...but you'll get there!!
I realize I may not know what to say...but I hate that you feel this way!!
time....time....:) Good luck--I won't tell ya my story cause u will hate me. Look at that baby:) Isn't he worth it?
Oh my darling friend. I am torn on what to say to you. On the one hand, I want to be supportive of your effort and tell you that you CAN do it, and that you WILL, even if it takes time (because it's true). I want to tell you that YOU ROCK for putting so much effort into it, and that I am PROUD of you, and that I am sorry it's not going as fast as it should.
On the other hand...
I am also tempted to say that you are fighting nature, and that there's nothing wrong with a carrying a little extra weight as long as your body and diet are healthy. This idea that women have to be a size (blank) to be attractive is just bollocks, and is honestly very new in human history.
The truth is that I myself am hopelessly straddled on both sides of the fence. Part of me knows that if I FULLY committed myself to being conscious of every bite I take, and mindful of the calories of every meal, and religiously exercised, I would look amazing. I would be proud of my body and confident about my appearance. The OTHER part of me resents that I would ever ask that of myself. I know my diet is reasonably healthy and balanced. I know that I am not obese and I have no reason to feel like a lard a$$. I hate that society is telling me, and I am accepting, what is and is not beautiful. And if you don't think it's SOCIETY telling you, just look at iconic beauty through the ages. Today's models would look like starving waifs next to these women. Anyway, as you can tell, this is a subject I could go on and on about...
I guess I will just say that I love you, and I honestly, truly think you are SO pretty and that a few extra pounds does absolutely nothing to disparage that.
I know this is lame of me to comment because I really have no pep talk or advice or anything like that. I really just wanted to say that I relate to this feeling and this frustration that you're going through 100%. Sometimes I just want to know that other people out there know exactly what I'm going through and that's it. I'll be in the same boat as you after this baby in my belly comes out in August. I'll have all this baby weight to lose knowing full well that I'm going to want to get pregnant again and have to go through the cycle again. It's hard. There are good days and bad days. I guess ultimately the only thing I can think to say is to work-out with the goal of wanting to be healthy instead of lose weight and that can take the pressure off. Okay, I guess that was advice right there. I hate it when people say "hang in there", but I'm saying it . . . hang in there.
I love you dearly, Pooh...Don't let this get you down. Remember Satan's greatest tool is discouragement. You will lose it. Take it 10 lbs at a time and let that be your goal. Or even 5 if you need to but I always looked forward to getting out of each number group.
Love you
Muthat
PS Hug my Lucas and Geoffrey and Enos for me, please.
Yo. Makena's freaking 8 months (almost) and i STILL haven't lost all the weight. :) blah! seriously though, i was in the same boat, working out, eating healthy and NOTHING was happening, then about month 7, finally improvement (and I'd actually STOPPED (or given up on) exercising religiously and majorly watching what I ate--it just happened). It just takes time. Your hormones are still all out of whack too. I read a website that said it took your body 9 months to build up to having the baby, so it's going to take at LEAST that long to lose the weight. (wait, that makes me depressed...I only have a month left...sigh...oh well, maybe after my NEXT baby, i'll try really hard to be a hot mom.) :)
ps. i tried telling myself that i was working out to strengthen my heart muscles/be healthy b/c i want to be around as long as i can to watch my sweet thang grow up, and want to contribute to that by doing all i can to take care of myself. so, when i needed encouragement, i'd look at her sweet face and say i'm doing this for you baby love! (now i feel guilty that i've gotten bad about it...thanks a lot). I think I'm going to take Makena on a walk.
Don't give up Linds. I know how frustrating it is. Owen is almost 10 months and I am just finally feeling like I have my body back. You have been doing soooo good, I am super proud of you and wish I had that comittment. Keep it up and don't get discouraged. Good luck!
Lindsay! You are beautiful! That is so important for you to remember...
I understand your frustration, I do! Yesterday when I read your blog post about your giving up I felt so sad for you... and not in a pathetic sort of way, rather in an I can relate way. I sincerely hope your desire to give up has passed. Obviously, I am not one to talk about losing weight, I have my own issues in that area. However, having watched several 'biggest loser' programs I can tell you that one of the biggest tips they give there is that if you cut down substantially on calories and are working out you don't lose, you plateau. So, rather than having shakes for breakfast and lunch you could probably have something high in fiber and protein for breakfast, then do your shake for lunch, then have a healthy dinner. You just may have more energy to tackle your goal that way.
I am rooting for you! Good luck! :)
babe, i know there is nothing i can say to make you feel better. know that i love you and i hope you've found some light in this horrible situation. if you want to, i've been meaning to go on walks with our new cool jogger. perhaps this be an activity we do together? let me know your feelings. i know you're leaving soon, but i would like to help. i love you!
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